Halcyonic Chronicles

2010-09-09T21:40:00.007+08:00

Chapter #037

Puzzle pieces

as minuscule as it may seem,

it's actually so so closely related to relationships.

think about it:

y'knw how sometimes when we're putting puzzle pieces together,

we think tht these few pieces would fit together but actually they don't.

same for us:

sometimes we'll come across a few special people &think tht heyy, perhaps tht person could actually be th right one.

but, tht's not always th case right?

then, we come across this certain puzzle piece tht fits so easily, so effortlessly &th whole picture is completed.

likewise, we'll meet a certain someone tht assimilates (if i may use such a word in this sentence) so easily into our lives, so effortlessly.

tht, perhaps, is th right one.

then again, like any other completed puzzles, it's bound to break apart if we don't preserve it.

similarly, coming across th right person doesn't necessarily mean tht th relationship will last indefinitely.

we've gotta glue it together, put it in a frame, etc.

if we don't, it all crumbles apart.

when it does, what do we do?

more often than not, it'll be very difficult to put it back together

whyy? pieces go missing, patience to re-do th whole thing again is lost, etc.

but smetimes, we think, heyy perhaps it's worth it to go through th entire process again, so worth it tht we don't mind putting it back together - irregardless of how long it'll take, how painstakingly painful it'll be.

so, we do we all fit? where do i fit?

&more imptly, where is this puzzle piece i'm missing?

would it be who i think it'd be? or perhaps, smeone else?

let it come then, cos if she's th right one then she'll definitely fall into place easily, effortlessly.

&irregardlessofthis,istillmustsaythtyou'remissed ;

2010-09-06T22:14:00.002+08:00

Chapter #036: Cupid's Chokehold

LOVE.
What is it really?
Dictionary.com defines love as "a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person."
Undeniably, love is one of th most common words said today but do people really mean it when they utter th word "love"? Do we even know what love actually is?
Perhaps it's been said a tad too much - so so much tht th word itself has now become tarnished, rid of it's purity; it's meaning lost.
&perhaps this abuse of th word "love" has resulted in love itself being painful more than it actually is blissful.

What people should understand is tht th condition before a supposedly "profound tender, passionate affection for another person" can be called love is tht it has to be unconditional.
Parents; Friends - When they do things fr you, do they expect anything in return? More often than not, they don't - they do things unconditionally.
Is this love then? Possibly.
Sad to say, one of th purest of words, feelings may actually be lost forever in time to come.

Don't ask why i posted this, just a random thought.

2010-09-05T16:19:00.002+08:00

Chapter #035: An End to th Inactivity

looking back at my old posts, it's been what.. more than a year since i've last blogged?

hahah!

&reading my old posts, i realised how vulgar i was back then ><

why th sudden urge to blog again?

i dunno/:

just felt like it?

hmmm..

it's been so, so long since i've last blogged that i dunno what to blog about ><

ahhhhh

&isitrighttosaythtimissyouso?

2009-02-15T21:06:00.004+08:00

Chapter #034: Intonation

went to collect my pants today,
& it's WAY better than before,
so yea (:

then met up with Cuz to go get shoes at Queensway!
gt th Asics shoes fr ~~121$~~ 84$ so yea (:
too bad they didnt hve it in blue+white though ):

then bought food
& headed to his house fr sme Rock Band / Guitar Hero 2
hahhah
can't believe hw rusty i was at it after nt playing it fr a mth
S:

ohh well,
glad tmr's dress down day!
(:

remnantsslowlydisintegratingtonothingness

2009-02-14T11:22:00.004+08:00

Chapter #033: Saturday Valentine's

great saturday morning today!
& happy valentine's to all!
(:
let's just hope all th couples out there celebrating valentine's brought
an umbrella along with them cause i saw dark clounds looming!
:O

hahha,
yesterday was awesome, yet boring

it felt pretty weird wearing th uni th 1st time,
cause th material is totally different frm tht of St Pat's,
so yea,
pretty weird.

Sandra got me a Valentine's gift,
but I didn't get her any /:
Sorry Sis! Next year k! (:

had boring lectures all th wayy uhh
so you could've guess who butt-numbing th experience was
x)

then we met Rebecca & Jing Fang aft th whole lecture,
& they got all frm 1A05 Valentine's gift!
COOKIES!
hahaha
awesome (:
took some pictures aft tht,
& i'm "patiently" waiting fr those pictures
aaahhh
Thnks fr being such awesome OGLs guys!
& let's just hope Alvin gets well soon too!
(:

ohh well,
guess i better go get ready.
gonna meet up with Shawn Lai
to go alter our pants.
really,
you cld actually stuff 2 of me in th pants
:O

&asyournameechoesinmyhead

2009-02-12T20:26:00.002+08:00

Chapter #032: Music Reminisce

ahhhhhh
i'm just so happy now!
:D:D:D
hahahha,
yea i knw,
siao righttt
haha

today was th last day of Civics Orientation!
woo!
& really,
today was awesome
but too bad Alvin popped his knee yesterday
due to improper landing during Volleyball.
recover soon man!

had scavenger hunt today!

Station #001 was some spiderweb game
where we had to like transport our members to th other side
without using th same hole more than twice
& we managed to get 23/25 over?
hahha
awesome, no

Station #002 was blindfold / pair / 3legged game
was supposed to like avoid obstalcles & at th end of it take marbles uhh
& i was paired with Melody
hahah hilarious man
we were like wondering whether to like hop / walk uhh
then after tht she ended up hitting her head at th table,
sorry! S:
but hey, we mananged to avoid th cones man!
& we got 3 marbles?
woo!

Station #003 was a jigsaw game where 3 of us was blindfolded,
Me, Shawn & Melody
heh, kinda reminded me of my nursery days man,
x)
fr me to knw, fr you to find out whyyy! :P
of course, we were supposed to be aided by our other classmates uhh
& hey, we completed it man!
after tht we had to do a theme song,
& of course,
we chose SPONGEBOB!
i was th captain, yo!
hahahah

Station #004 was some drawing game,
but th catch is we're supposed to trace a pic with out touching th marker
so we had to like manoeuver th marker on strings uhh,
& my half of th team almost gt a perfect Patrick sketch,
but th other had an okay2 tracing of Gary uhh,
try harder guys!
(:

Station #005 was called Broken Handphone
where we were supposed to like guess th character tht was given.
1st was James Bond, really easy,
they managed to get it right with th help of pointing out '0-0-7'.
2nd was Sir Stamford Raffles,
hahah Fathur's actions were funny man,
it began as a World + Putting th Flag + Th Raffles pose uhh,
but it ended up as like a Coalminer kinda action
xD
3rd was Santa Claus,
nt much of a challenge.
& 4th was Spongebob!
hahah, square shape + squeezing th sponge action

Station #006 involved forming th names of sme teachers uhh,
guess it was easier with th help of Nadia, Anna, Shariful & Shawn uhh
again,
finished really quick (:

Station #007 was some quiz uhh
& we were supposed to like ask around fr th answers to th 10 qns.
& we gt all of em right within less than 5min man!
power!

Station #008 was yet another pair game
was supposed to like transport an uncook spaghetti with our mouths,
& was like paired up with this girl whose name i can't remember..
think it's Angeline or sth like tht,
yea

Station #009 was some fitness game,
where we were supposed to do 25 pullups, 30 inclined & transport 10 ppl across th wall.
of course, i did th pullups (:
hahha nah! kidding!
i climbed th wall,
as agile as th monkey they say (:

Station #010 was another blindfold game
but only 23/25 was blindfolded.
th other 2, Anna & Nadia was supposed to give directions to us
to form SR uhh
& we did it man!
below 5 minutes?
awesomeness (:

after th whole thing,
had lunch,
& was really surprised th Rebecca listens to A7X, Atreyu & stuff like tht,
:O
then played Captain's Ball! (really fun, i swear :D:D)
then Me, Joachim & Shariful headed th ball fr awhile uhh,
hahha! Jin Fang & Rebecca, Orion1's lovely OGLs, were really hilarious when they tried to do so uhh
x)
played sme games after tht also

had th Grand Finale after tht,
enjoyed th College / Chicken Dance most
WOO! damn awesome man
hahah

wondering myself how i'm gonna sleep with this my hyperness in me,
& it's really left me euphoric right nw,
ahhhhh (:

&howdoigoaboutsweepingyouoffyourfeet

2009-02-11T19:39:00.001+08:00

Your Superpower Should Be Mind Reading

You are brilliant, insightful, and intuitive.

You understand people better than they would like to be understood.

Highly sensitive, you are good at putting together seemingly irrelevant details.

You figure out what's going on before anyone knows that anything is going on!

Why you would be a good superhero: You don't care what people think, and you'd do whatever needed to be done

Your biggest problem as a superhero: Feeling even more isolated than you do now

What Should Your Superpower Be?

2009-02-11T18:40:00.004+08:00

Chapter #031: Cascading Rain

~~fcuking~~ no manners,
at least hve th ~~fcking~~ tendency to say "excuse me"
ughhh

_________________________________

school was freaking boring today
*yawwwwwnnnn!*

had class time first.
had some icebreakers, & talks on school values, blah blah blah

then had a break,
during which Sandra went around pasting stickers
on people which said: "Join Cheer!"

then had sme House Games in th hall,
really lame, i swear.
didnt really participated,
just slacked at th back with th other A05 guys.

then had PE talk! -.-
fr which i slept through completely!
a whooping 1hr of slp!
:D
but woke up with both my legs numb & a really bad neck ache
*ouchh!*

then had CCA talks,
after which had CCA exhibition.
have already made up my mind to join Council,
heck, th Council President already knws my name!
;D

can't believe we were not allowed to leave sch till 1730
but heck,
all th St Pat's guys went off at 1650,
wooo!
but well,
it rained heavily as soon as we got out
so got drenched

making things worse,
me & Shawn got on a bus which broke down half-way
-.-
so had to transfer bus smewhere at Geylang Methodist Pri.

then bought Chicken Rice at Aljunied MRT,
cheap man.. 2$ only!
:D

mum called when i was on th train saying tht dad will pick me up frm th bus stop.
but then,
sme ~~fcuker~~ chinese guy scolded me while i was on th phone:
~~fcuker~~: hello, can don't stand at th door or nt?
Me: *looks at him whilst on th phone*
~~fcuker~~: *walks off & turns back*
~~fcuker~~: *points at th door & walks off*

like hey man,
i'm not even blocking your ~~fcuking~~ way,
but even if i did,
you cld've at least said "Excuse Me"
I WAS ON TH PHONE FR GOD'S SAKE!
probably sth you don't hve in your ~~fcuking~~ vocab,
~~fcuker~~
ughhh

smetimesiwishicldsaveyou

2009-02-10T19:10:00.003+08:00

Chapter #030: Fr Th Next 2 Years,

sch seemed great today,
somehow S:

had station games today,
kinda fun actually.

Station #001 was kinda boring?
yea,
sme of us were blindfolded
& we were like to hook our hand to th neighbour in a circle manner uhh
& were supposed to pick up letters to form th word selfless
boring, no?

Station #002 was okay, i shld say
played tug-of-war
lost 2 out of 2 games,
yea,
saddening righttt ):

Station #003 was tiring really,
has to like fill a box full of holes to a certain level uhh
& well,
Orion1 won!
woohoo!
not as wet as i thought it would be though!
pffft

Station #004 was another water game!
any more fun then th previous? no!
any wetter? absolutely,
but still nt wet enough!
& we were tied cause though

Station #005 involved sme tangling,
& we were suppose to untangle ourself
& well, if you tangle up 25 ppl,
really, you'll find yourself in awkward positions
& well,
we didnt complete th task even within 20min
cause there were 2 circles, nt 1!
:O
hahha,
imagine if smeone released gas during th game,
woahhhhhhh

Station #005 was Capture Th Flag,
& th other team cld tell tht i was agitated
hahhaha
but well,
we lost cause i simply cldnt find a way nt to get caught,
ughhh
):

had break after tht,
& one of my classmates thought sth was wrong with me cause i was lying down
hahhaha
nahhh,
i'm just tired, don't worry (:
you'll see me lying down all around school sooner or later
xD
ohhh & i got punched by Sandra today..
really, enough with th punches to th stomach pls!
all i did was knock your head lightly

Station #006 was some animal game
where we were given a picture & was supposed to
find others with th same animal,
but without saying a word,
just actions.
& well, i was a ~~horse~~ stallion (:
reminds me of Donkey frm Shrek!
"Stallllllion Baby!"
hahhaha

Station #007 was some caterpillar game,
& my butt&legs were crampping by th end of it!
but hey, Orion1 won!
wooo!

Station #008 was some ping-pong game uhh
where we were supposed to form a 'track-like' structure to transport th
ping-pong ball frm th top of th stairs to th other,
& again,
Orion1 wonn!
on a roll!
(:

had lunch @ sch,
but well, sme ppl didnt eat together during lunch ):
& ppl were wondering why i didnt eat!
hahahah
caring class man,

really felt tht th class has bonded uhh,
1A05! woo!
hhahah
awesome class with no ~~bastards~~ ~~nor bitches~~
:D

hopeyougetwellsoon(:

2009-02-09T19:22:00.002+08:00

Chapter #029: Orion

Week 2 of Orientation!

to start things off,
here's sme answers to th qns you might wanna ask:-
Q: Subject combination?
A: H2s - Math / Econs / Geog, H1s - Chem

Q: Class?
A: 1A05

Q: House, & What Colour?
A: Orion, & Should Be Blue

Q: CCA Planned To Join?
A: Council, ODAC

& believe it or nt,
my class only has 8 guys!
& th rest are girls

i was th only one frm St Pat's / OEPS / OG A2,
so had a whole new circle of friends uhh
damn,
Yong Kang's together with Terence,
while Shawn Lai's with Ben, Nikhalas & Sandra

ohhh well,
today had Amazing Race,
yea
not tht Amazing,
nor was it much of a Race,
but yea

Station 1 was kinda okayy,
hmmm played 3Legged Captain's Ball,
& hey,
our team thrashed the other like 5 - 1?
wooo!

Station 2 was kinda boring..
had to like be blindfolded while th other teammate guides you around
& you hve to avoid "mines" and stuff like tht

Station 3 was smethng called Beam Game
where you hve to stand in a row
& rearrange according to th given criteria,
okay uhh..
but a pretty common game i must say

Station 4 was sth involving flexibility of both mind&body,
pretty interesting uhh
so yea,
& i led th cheers at this station thnks to th OGLs!
-.-!

Station 5 was sme spelling game uhh,
pretty okayyy,
but kinda boring..
& had to take a class pic at this well structure thingy
so yea

had lunched @ Mcs,
& Jin Fang was really busy at pronouncing my name right
she went "Haizerl? Haizerl? Haizerl?"
then after a while she FINALLY gt it,
but then mispronounced it again -.-!

hahha had fun irritating / annoying her uhh
so yea (:

then went back to sch fr sme house meeting thingy,
b-o-r-i-n-g!
was asked to be part of th finale on thursday,
NO!
but then was pulled out to lead th cheers with sme other enthu guys -.-
hahhah, lking at them shouting their lungs out & losing their voice is pretty funny

went to th hall fr mass debrief after tht
evrythng ended at 1645,
but only was let off after being scolded by our CT cause we weren't
punctual in reporting after lunch.
ohh well

went to see sandra fr awhile,
HAHAH!
she didnt seem like she was having th time of her life,
bet if I was in your class,
it'll be way more fun righttt?
hahah!
yea, i knw i've been missed :P

so yea,
getting sch uni & stuff tmr
& glad to knw sch ends at 1530hrs tmr,
awesome!

wish.tht.i.cld.tell.you.sth.to.take.it.all.away

Quote Of Th Day:
Me: Why give maximum exertion when you can give minimal & still acquire th same results!

2009-02-08T19:56:00.007+08:00

Chapter #028: Dread

today smehw seems dreadful ):
didn't greet th day like hw i usually do,
instead, i dragged my feet to th toilet like a zombie
& i think i moaned like one too
"ooooooooo"

gt nagged at by mum after i gt back frm religious class
because i didn't wanna eat her fried laksa,
i mean,
c'mon.. you shld knw i don't like laksa & anythng which has th word laksa in it right..
doesn't mean it's nt your day today,
you can just blast at whoever you want righttt..
psshhh!

stumbled upon long awaited gradnite pics uploaded by
Jeong Houn(?):
"yeoooooooo!"

Pic #01:
Who? (Left to Right)- Cheston / Me / Edmund / Leland
What?- Gaying around in a corner? :O
Where?- Grand Corpthorne Hotel

Pic#02:
Who? (Left to Right)- Me / Adrian
What?- Me proposing to him! xD
Where?- Grand Corpthorne Hotel

& there you go!
pictures which have been MIA fr a very, very long time.
yet,
i've still yet to find one more
dang!

Pics #03 - #05:
wheee!~
Nike shoes frm th Nike sale @ Expo!
gt it fr 50$
heh!
probably will go buy black or brown laces fr it
or even perhaps pink?
HAHAHH! xD

Pic #06:
What?- Is tht th ocean i'm hearing? :O

Pic#07:
What?- Happy Feet! :D

ahhh!
schooling tmr! -.-
will get to knw my CG tmr
& will be playing either Amazing Race,
or station games
so, might nt be as dreadful as i thought perhaps?
psshhh.. who am i kidding!

smehw.i'm.psyched.to.start.learning.again

2009-02-07T20:20:00.005+08:00

Chapter #027: Sealed

damn,
body's still aching frm basketball trials yesterday -.-!
& speaking of basketball,
somehow th 7clicks run on evry Wed&Fri has totally changed my mind
on joining basketball,
considering th sloth tht i am, so yea
probably will join sth more slack,
like Student Council? yea

glad to knw i gt my subject combi of choice:
H2s: Geog / Econs / Math
H1: Chem
(:
probably one of th few gd things tht has happen to me since th start of th year
amidst all th misfortunes & suay-ness tht has struck me,
so yea

went to Nike warehouse sale @ expo in th evening
& th crowd there was huge!
managed to only swipe a shoe fr 50$
& i can't believe i'm a size 8!
so yea,
if i had more time,
probably cld've also gotten a jacket/hoodie with tht so yea
thnks fr th shoe, Mummy&Papa!

was on th verge of blowing my top just nw,
but didn't.
whatever happened, i don't wanna talk bout it so yea. pfft!

& as you can see,
i totally want th MotoROKR S9 Bluetooth Headset!
so if anybody knws where to get one & hw much it costs,
do tell me pls!
:D

guess i've accepted th fact tht i'm in SRJ,
nth much i can do anyway,
so yea.. pfft
just hope my 2yrs doesn't suck
sigh,

guess.I.shouldn't.qn.what.God.has.given.me

Quote Of Th Day:
Nike Vendor: A size 8? You're a very lucky man,
this is th last pair!

2009-02-05T18:31:00.003+08:00

Chapter #026: As I Kneel Down In Apology,

Sorry cldn't possibly be enough to make up fr yesterday,
But if only it wld.
Hence, i dedicate this entire post to you,
to apologize fr what was said, which shldn't hve been said,
to apologize fr what was expressed, which shldn't hve been expressed,
to apologize fr emotions tht were shown, which shldn't hve been there at all.

Yesterday was near death, I cld tell you this.
& i would nvr wanna return to yesterday,
certain you wld nt want too.
I shld've been more understanding towards what you were going through,
instead of caring more of where i'm at
& how things were fr me.

I honestly tried to be there fr you
with the sincerest of hearts,
but smehw, i allowed my feelings to overwhelmed tht
& once again, we were in another fallout.

I'm aware of what i should do now,
to be a better friend,
to be more understanding,
to be more selfless & nt selfish,
& to be there more often.
It might take awhile to reach there,
but i hope you'll still be there when i reach tht status.

- Frm Me, To You,

2009-02-05T14:51:00.008+08:00

Chapter #025: Nightmare

& only God knows
of how much this heart quivers & quakes
with th slightest thoughts of you..

__________________________________

woke up at 0445hrs cause of sme nightmare i had,

anyway,
reached school earlier than any other day -.-

& today was officially th most boring day
lectures all th way

first up was GP,
& freaking had to do argumentative!
which i didnt finish -.-
wrote on "Television game shows are harmful. Do you agree?"

next up was Econs,
pretty okay uhh..
sat on th floor of LT cause of lack of seats

then had break
& slacked with Rahul, Bryan, Sandra, Dennison & Nickhalas(?)

next up was Lit,
which i want cause Sandra dragged me along,
& even so,
i got punched by her! O:
& as you can see from thn pic,
Sandra spelt my name wrongly!
tsk!
Haizer also hard to pronounce/say
& i thought Raedi was harder,
yet,
she could pronounce it properly at her first go!
O:

then had Math!
but pon th lecture xD
hahah lepak with th usual few at th Cafe
turns out there are notes tht hve to be handed up! O:
eh, smeone lend me notes pls! tht is, if i'm still around nxt week uhh :P

mass debrief followed by
dismissal after that
& yea i'm home nw (:
probably gonna take another 3hr slp?
heh :D

tmr..
hmmm..
really anxious to knw where my appeals to TPJ/CJ manage to pull through
& if they do there are probably interviews to go to..
well if nt,
then basketball trng at 1600hrs then!

i'dneverwannareturntoyesterday

damn,
just realised tht you've encoded my favourite font onto my blog,
ughh,
what an idiot i must be,
stupid! pen tan! baka! bodoh! ugghh!

2009-02-04T14:42:00.003+08:00

Chapter #024: Mmrs In Th Rain

today was better than expected! :D
& no, i wasn't let fr school again
in fact, i was early!

hmm,
orientation was so-so today.
played Amoeba(?) & Wacko!
pretty fun i must say,
then had break frm 0900 - 0945

hung out with th other st pat's ppl during break,
lepakz at th 2nd lvl cafe
& after which, went down to Uncle Henry's to get th H2 Econs Lecture notes fr tmr

speaking of lectures,
tmr's gonna suck!
i swear!
whole day PACKED with lectures!
*faint!*
anybody willing to entertain me during lectures? S:

then, after break, headed to th hall
had college dance,
freakin stupid ~~(no offence)~~, i swear!
then had th college anthem, -.-
followed by college cheer -.-!!

wonder when're my appeals gonna pull through,
sigh,
both TPJ & CJ hve yet to tell me anythn,
so yea ):

oh yea,
me & th other guys frm grp A2 disturbed Sandra throughout th whole
college cheer/dance/anthem xD
extremely hilarious, i swear!
she and her ~~rats~~ chinchilas :D
*dn't care if you're taller than me, sandra xP

& just realised tht most of th guys in my group are appealin,
either to CJ, SA, TPJ or MJ
so yea,

once again,
i've hadn't eaten anythng in sch!
-.-!
& had a lk at th new balance shoes which were on sale,
no thnks man,
100$?
rather go queensway (:
anybody wanna accompany me there?

& was invited to go fr bball trng again today,
but nahh,
felt rly sian today,
so yea
friday alright! :D

thtlil'freckledgal:P

2009-02-03T19:30:00.005+08:00

Chapter #023: Precipice Of Defeat

Honestly, i don't know what i should do anymore, really don't.
Enough said, i shouldn't even have
Let my feelings loose just like that.
Perhaps.. i sldn't be doing this anymore, cause i can't possibly be in th
Middle of you two, no i can't
Even if my heart's too engulfed in all this, i should
Probably just stop &
Let my feelings lay dormant.
Excruciating it may be but
Arghhh! I'm really confused of what should be done right now
Sigh, I dunno, maybe
Eventually time will tell

&asflashbacksstarttoinvademymind

2009-02-02T20:21:00.002+08:00

Chapter #022: February Commencement

& as th January chapter closes,
th February chapter begins to be written..

____________________

& yes,
JC term has commenced!
bleargh, SRJC,
where's TPJ when i need it? ):

anywayyyyyyyyy,
SRJC's pretty cool,
despite having it's hall on th 1st floor,
which is really weird fr me!
but i has ~~(nt so)~~ awesome cafes
& th food there are ~~(not to)~~ die for
HAAHA

& th variation of schools found there,
woahh, really shocking
saw schools like TK, TKG, VS,
SCGS, CCHMS

found out tht Ben, John, Ignatius, David, Terence, Yong Kang, Ram & Shawn Lai
frm St Pat's! & Ammar, Hanan & Puja frm OE
are in SRJC too!

& as usual,
th st pat's guys usually cause havoc
this is wht we did,
Fr evry VS student tht walks by, we'll go "Eh, VJ no more space is it? Aiyohh";
Fr evry AC student, "Ehh, AC also don't have? Aiyohhh";
Evry CCHMS student, "NYJC no space? Darn! ";
HAHAHH!
end we'll end evrythng off with.. , "But SRJC have!"
xD
damn crazy, i swear

it was pretty awkward though to be in a single sexed school,
but it was okay after awhile,
so yea,
groupmates told me nt to appeal,
but hey, i've alrdy set my mind in TPJ,
& if i do get in, sry guys!

ohh yea,
& dad's gonna appeal me into CJ tmr!
hope if TPJ doesnt want me, CJ does!
woo!

sme J2 basketball members asked me to join their training tmr,
bt sry guys,
it'll end too late &
besides, i've gt other things on :D

&i'llbethereoutsidethgates

2009-02-01T21:26:00.005+08:00

Chapter #021: W33k3nd

Th Friday Flare:
well, if you realised,
i've gained a cardinal sin: Vanity,
yet have lost Envy!

went to Mr Kwan's fr CNY!
.. which was all th way at BAKAU!
(mrt to outram park > sengkang > lrt to bakau)

met up with MC, Adrian, Zi Hui, George, Jack, Fang Chao & Fazwin.
Mr Kwan ordered KFC! wooo!
ate 3 pieces cause he kept asking us to take more! =X

played all sorts of games at his house
& really, had a blast there.
damn, really missed those primary school days ):

afterwhich,
went to west coast to meet up with my parents & headed homeeee!

Saturday Snore
went fr bball with th usual,
was really off-form though
& yet again, i've injured my thumb!

then went to west coast via a convertible!
hahah nahh!, it was my uncle's lorry,
but hey, same wind-in-th-hair feeling no? :D

NEW SKILL ACQUIRED: ART OF POTATO/ONION PEELING & VEGETABLE
CUTTING!
did alot of kitchen work i've never done before!
like cutting up vegetables, and peeling th skin of th vege & what not
ended up goin home at 0233hrs
!!

Sensational Sunday
cousin's wedding today!
which means A WHOLE LOT OF WORK!
reached at 1000hrs

was put in charge of th buffet table, a.k.a th runner -.-!
ran in and out of th kitchen till i my left leg totally hurts right nw,
& it actually fell asleep once just nw!

ate at about 1700hrs, (breakfast + lunch + dinner)
cause i was busy & i was actually waiting fr my cousin,
WHICH arrived happily at 1800hrs when evrythng was over

cld barely stay awake at 1900hrs
& almost fell asleep at th playground!
then cleared evrythng up & i'm nw here at hme!

despite th rush in th afternoon,
what really made my day to day was my pay!
& of course, th smses to TLB in btwn ;P

alright, gotta go prepare fr school tmr!
dammit SRJC, grrr
*faint*
c'mon TPJ, c'mon TPJ!
msg me tmr pls TPJ!
*prays very, very, VERY hard!*

&KuPanjatkanAyat2CintaIniKpdMu

Surprise? :)

2009-02-01T12:58:00.004+08:00

Hey! Since Mr Raedi Haizer isn't updating, I shall update for him.

He's really busy helping his cousin at some wedding thingy. UPDATE SOON WITH PICTURES!

Updated by,
TLB.

2009-01-30T07:42:00.002+08:00

Chapter #020: Paths Opening

i know it's 0742hrs in th morn'
but hey, POSTING'S OUT!

& gt posted to SRJC (anyone posted here?)
seems pretty decent,
& th uniform seems okay,
might actually look good on me though xD
but might consider appealing into CJC.
let's see how thing's go.

you can say i'm pretty psych nw tht school's gonna start next week
but then again, today concludes th end of my holidays ):
tht's it, i'm gonna pig out today!
xD
who's with me?!

& to think i'm this hyper after only 4hrs of sleep,
who knew?

walkthisway?

2009-01-29T21:28:00.002+08:00

Chapter #019: Vocal Resonant

Standing on the rooftops, waiting til the bomb drops
This is all we got now, screamin til your heart stops
Never gonna weaken, watching every sunset
Listen to your heart beat, all the life that we've had

________________________________________

can't believe those ppl came again
& to think they were highly religious ppl
& they came here, demanding fr what?
a refund?!
& to think they came on gd will to see my dad
ugghh

& yes,
i was so frustrated tht i fell asleep =X
tht totals my sleep fr today to.. 12hrs?
damn, nt a personal best

currently listening to many of th past hits
like Far Away by Nickelback
& Six Feet Frm Th Edge by Creed.
really missed those songs man..
Creed's like MIA right nw
but Nickelback's new album, Dark Horse
is awesome.
highly recommended! :D

can't wait fr tmr!
it's like 10 1/2 more hrs till results posting!
c'mon! CJ! CJ! CJ! CJ!
*prays hard, really hard!*
& tmr's probably like th last day of my holiday!
gotta pig out tmr man!
oh darn, there's primary school outing tmr!
& cousin's wedding to prepare summore!
-.-!

*sniff sniff*
i smell food!!
gotta run!

causewithyoui'dwithstandallofhelltoholdyourhand

2009-01-28T22:54:00.002+08:00

Chapter #018: Th Yearn & Burn

Heart quivers whenever you speak;
Evry word spoken never fails to
Replace my sorrow with undying bliss

__________________________________

woke up today after having one of th weirdest dreams ever!
& i can't recall a single moment of it!
:S

well,
my blog got a makeover!
thank you!
yes, you know who you are :P
& i gotta admit,
my night was really out of this world :D
savoured it right till th very end!
& it'll be sure to be etched in th very depths of my mind

CAN'T WAIT FR FRIDAY!
posting results man!
0800 hrs!
ahhhhhh!
1st choice pls!

alrighty then,
i wanna go eat ice creammmm
seeya!

anythngfryou,k?

2009-01-28T22:43:00.000+08:00

You Are Sunday

Like this day of the week, you are ruled by the sun.

More than anything else, you are extremely bold.

You can't help but be a little self-centered and overbearing.

After all, the world does seem to revolve around you at times!

Sunday is the day of rest, and you love to take time to relax.

And for you, nothing is more relaxing than having people wait on you.

What Day of the Week Are You?

2009-01-27T19:00:00.000+08:00

Chapter #017a: Poetically Pathetic

I'm in my head right now,
Locked in deep thoughts
Of you & only you.
Very clueless on what I should say to you right now fr
Evry word I say tends to come out wrong;
You getting hurt as a result.
Oh, should I just shut up & leave?
Unwillingly, if I ever did.
Sorry might not cut it but
Only if it did.

I only wanted to see you happy,
Never hurt &
Even worse by the very words of mine.
Even if it means to abstain from letting my feelings out -
Dormant shall they become -
Yet I would not mind doing so
Only if you'll be happy with where you are right now even if it
Ultimately means I'm no more a piece to your puzzle,
So be it cause I'll do it
Only & always for you.

x lockedindeepthought

2009-01-27T12:20:00.002+08:00

Chapter #017: Th Middle

ughhh
really sucks being th middle child,
where you're neither too young or too old
to do this & tht.
"Haizer, do this.." & "Haizer, do tht.."

whenever anyone needs smeone to blow their top at,
guess who becomes th victim.
right, me.
ughh

frustrated;drivencrazy;victimized

2009-01-25T17:48:00.004+08:00

Chapter #016: Knuckle Debate

Ughh!
i've fcking had it with you
fcking age doesnt cme with fcking respect,
mind you.

pms?
pls, i just fcking woke up
fcking dn't blast at me;
you fcking blow your top off when i do tht to you right?
so fcking dnt.

logic?
nahh, i don't think you have one.
next time,
try talking with more sense pls?

& if you dn't like th way i do things,
fcking do you yourself,
aite?
:D

sry.
pardon my language pls,
it's just nt my fcking day today.
thnks.
& i was right,
my halcyon days are probably long gone

earnmyfckingrespect1st,dammit

2009-01-24T13:30:00.002+08:00

Chapter #015: Who Spun Th Wheel Of Misfortune?

it's been 3 weeks nw
& it seems like alot has happened,
& i do mean ALOT

Week 1:
reference frm my past few posts,
dad had to undergo 2 ops within 2 days
due to a ruptured vessel.

Week 2:
reference frm my one of my previous post,
paternal grandmum had to undergo surgery
due to a hip fracture (?)
but should be discharged today.

Week 3:
today,
at 0619 hrs,
mum received a call frm my uncle
saying tht my aunt's house caught fire
& they were rushed to NUH (?)
but got news tht they were okay.

& well yesterday,
God forbid, but i guess i lost smeone important to me
sigh, really really blew it

well, since i gt up early today
i didnt bother going back to sleep,
though i kinda did fr about a few minutes?
& i dreamt tht i was alrdy all ready to go fr my bball session,
bt well,
i woke up, in my bad, & all groggy

quite on-form fr today's session
but yet again, gt quite a number of injuries
well, nth new fr me

List Of Injuries:
x ball landed right SMACK onto my face
x thumb gt fcked up, again
x blisters
x leg cramps (well, didnt stretch so was kinda askin fr it :S)

evryeventhasareasonbehindit

Quote Of Th Day:
Sme NS dude we played with [referring to me]:
"hey rebound king!"

2009-01-23T21:26:00.003+08:00

Chapter #014: 1930's

took me about an hr to draw this!
freaking hard, i swear
even left out the feet
aahh! :S
& what, after weeks nt holding a pencil?
awesommee!

watched Supernatural (S04E05) entitled "Monster Movie"
& it made me so interested in all th 1930's horror movie!
so yea,
ended up drawing th werewolf above!

today was so-so actually
met up with Danial & Matin fr friday prayers
after which, we went to eat at New Hawa

& i heard tht Mr Lim **** ****
gt fired cause he gt caught watching porn on his laptop
in th freaking staff rm!
whether tht's true or nt,
tht has yet to be cnfirmed,
bt trust me, Mr Lim is kinda - errr - well, y'knw :S
*sends chills down spine*

ohh well,
wanna go watch Smallville nw!
& oohhh!
basketball tmr! so pumped up nw! :D

gimmeapencil&ishallpresentyouwithapotrait

2009-01-22T23:47:00.003+08:00

Side Chapter #002: On Th Big Screen

read tht there are awesome movies which
are gonna be released this year!
this calls fr a MOVIE MARATHON!

My Bloody Valentine 3D
starring Jensen Ackles (played Dean Winchester in Supernatural)

Street Fighter: Legend Of Chun-Li
ooooboy! Kristin Kreuk! *drools*
& this will be Taboo's 1st on-screen roll!
i bet you'll knw what he's playing
*hint: character with long hair & who's name starts with a 'V'

Fast & Furious (4)
Paul Walker, who plays Brian O' Conner, is back!
Wonder what awesome cars will be displayed here

Dragonball Evolution
hmmm.. a white guy playing a Japanese anime character?
not to fancy bout th idea,
but let's see wht it has in store
cause th trailer's quite awesome!

X-men Origins: Wolverine
fr all x-men fans, Gambit will be featured in this movie!
& this will be Will.i.am's 1st on-screen role!
looks like another B.E.P member acting on th silverscreen

Transformers 2: Revenge Of Th Fallen
can't wait fr this one!
hope this one has more graphics, cool automobiles & more Megan Fox!
=X!

there's a whole lot more to be shown this year, like:
Final Destination: Death Trip 3D,
Dance Flick,
New Moon (?),
2012,
and th list goes on!
you thought i was gonna feature em' all did you?
SIAO! =P

oh well,
TV time!

i'mntinsane,i'mntinsane!

2009-01-22T23:34:00.002+08:00

Chapter #013: We Have A Fever, You&I

Almost Easy
Avenged Sevenfold

I feel insane
Every single time I'm asked to compromise
'Cause I'm afraid & stuck in my ways
& that's the way it stays
So how long did I expect love to outweigh ignorance?
By that look on your face I may have forced the scale to tip

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not... (not insane)

(Mother)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again it's almost easy

Shame pulses through my heart from the things I've done to you
It's hard to face but the fact remains that this is nothing new
I left you bound and tied with suicidal memories
Selfish beneath the skin but deep inside I'm not insane

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not...(not insane)

(Mother)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again it's almost easy
(You'll learn your lesson)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(But first you fall)
Come back again it's almost easy

Now that I've lost you it kills me to say
(Hurts to say)
I've tried to hold on as you've slowly slipped away
I'm losing the fight, I've treated you so wrong now let me make it right
(Make it alright)

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
(Ha ha ha ha ha)
I'm not insane, I'm not... Not insane

(Mother)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again it's almost easy
(You'll learn your lesson)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(But still you fall)
Come back again it's almost easy

got th song playing over & over again in my head;
freaking hooked to th song!
"i'm nt insane, i'm nt insaneeeee!..
Come back to me, it's almost e-zay!"
you see?

it's 2339 hrs nw & my eyes are WIDE open!
gotta stay up to watch American Idol at 0030 hrs & Heroes at 0230 hrs
can't wait!
note to self: dn't frgt to give dad medicine @ 0100hrs

today was kinda okay actually, cld've been better though.
watched 3 episodes of Supernatural (S04) in th afternoon,
awesome stuff man, aweeeesome!
then went to th hospital to visit my grandmum;
will probably be discharged this Saturday if things go well

speaking of Saturday,
i wanna go play bball in th morning!
smebody host please!
& i've been wanting to wake up evry morn' to jog,
but, well, knwing me -
Reenactment:
*alarm rings*
Me: *offs th phone alarm & tosses it under my pillow*
Me: *snoreeeeeeee* =X

ughhh,
i feel a fever coming up,
blearghhhh

i'mntinsane,i'mntinsane!

Quote Of Th Day:
Dad [when he found out i posted his pics on it]:
Huh?! What block (referring to blog)? Goblok? (stupid in Indon)

2009-01-22T00:03:00.007+08:00

Side Chapter #001: Smallville

season 8 of Smallville is awesome!
this season nw casts Justin Hartley, who plays Oliver Queen / Green Arrow
as a regular
& has added new faces to th cast: Cassidy Freeman & Sam Witwer.
also,
this season features more DC Comics characters like
Plastique, Maxima & members of Th Legion & probably more to cme

th season will probably focus on hw
th Lois&Clark pair came about
& th formation of th JL perhaps?
pretty awesome stuff i must say!

& &!
they hve pretty awesome actresses cast in Smallville,
like Kristin Kreuk & Erica Durance,
& Allison Mack's not to bad too!
*drools* =X

right nw they're at episode 11, "Legion"
& episode 12, "Bulletproof" will be out smetime
today or tmr!
can't wait!
:D

iwannahvesuperpowers&aredcapetoo!
bti'llsparethneedtowearredundies,thnkyouverymuch :D

2009-01-20T20:33:00.002+08:00

Chapter #012: Frustratedly Tired

i'm damn frustrated nw cause i can't get
sme sleep despite being so freaking tired!
ughh!

it's been like this fr days nw
it's like, i'm being drained off my energy
& i can go yawning th entire day
yet, i can't sleep!

WHY!

whycan'tifreakingnaplikeialwaysdo?!

dad just gt discharged today btw

2009-01-19T21:31:00.004+08:00

Chapter #011: Th Outram Park Miracle

"most probably you'll be able to go home by tmr"
when th doc mentioned tht to my dad,
you cld literally see his face lit up
& he went "naneenaneepoopoo!" at all th nurses of Ward 52b!

bt well,
he will hve to go fr a brain scan 1st tmr
& see whether he still has his "after 1900hrs" fever

ever wondered what th surgery did to him?
well folks, th wait is over!
*drum roll!*

hahhaha!
nah kidding!

kkay, th real thing
note: if you hve poor gag reflexes, pls skip th nxt few pics

*not stitches, bt staples
yea ouch! i knw! :S

closer view
my mum calls this th "stress mark"
cause she believes he's like this due to overexertion
you workaholic dad!

but well,
it looks like he's suntanning at th beach in this picture

& to think he went through 2 ops within 2 days
OUCH! if you ask me
even th docs say it was a miracle fr him to be up & running this early,
whilst others were wheelchairbound after such surgery,
or worse, *gulp*, dn't make it at all

if you were to ask me,
this is trully a miracle
& i'd like to thnk all who have prayed fr my dad
& i'll be thnkful to you all frm this day on
:)

&dearGod,thnksfrseeingmydadthruhismomentofnd

Conversation Of Th Day:
Patient: Is he (me) th eldest?
Dad: Nah, he isn't. He is, what you say, th hotdog between 2 buns
Patient / Me / Mum: Hahahha!

2009-01-19T12:03:00.003+08:00

Chapter #010: Folie

ever wanted a Nintendo Wii?

Strike!

Home Run!

&offtothhospitaligo!

2009-01-18T23:01:00.002+08:00

Chapter #009: Falling Star

Yesterday:
Went to th hospital again;
it's kinda like my daily routine if you ask me.
pretty much all my paternal relatives are there
cause my grandma had to go fr an operation too.
but it got quite 'out-of-th-ordinary' smewhere in th evening;
i'd rather not say why. *chills sent down my spine!*
anyway,
tht NYP nursing student on came at night when i was going home!
WHY!

Warning:
Slight Horror Content Regarding SGH

1.
this was back when my dad was in th ICU.
according to him,
it was th 'dirtiest' amongst th 3 rooms he has been in.
there was an occurence where he said tht
there was a red wall in front of him
& he also felt tht he was beside a tree
despite being on th 2nd floor & in an enclosed area

2.
th current room he's been warded in.
he once mentioned there were little kids running around
at 3am & he even asked th nurses whether it was a nursery.
there's a few more but i'd rather not mention bout it,
dn't ask me why

itdoesn'ttakeascientisttoknwthtimissedyouso

Conversation Of Th Day:
Dad: Is it tht nurse? *points to some old lady*
Me: No! Tht one! *points to th NYP nursing student*
Dad: You uh, so cheeky! Later i'll ask her name fr you
Me: *stuck between 'What?!' & 'Oooboy! :D'*

2009-01-17T21:42:00.002+08:00

Chapter #008: Calamity Calling

finally,
dad's been transferred into th least critical room
in th neuroscience ward!
& th doctor expected him to be in th ICU fr 2 wks;
2 steps down with less than a week!

bt then,
heard tht my grandma (paternal) had a fall today :S
sigh,
frm one misfortune to another..

hopefully another misfortune won't follow suite :S
oh, dear God..

i dunno why but i didn't feel right when i woke up,
& it's been bugging me th whole day
ugghh!

areaccidentsthinthingnw?

Conversation Of Th Day:
Dad: You're th best son i've ever had!
Me: But i'm your only son
Dad: Tht's why you're th best!

2009-01-15T22:59:00.002+08:00

Chapter #007: Sealed Fate

finally submitted my option form.
it's been bugging me fr days nw!
phew!
CJC, hopefully!
ohh well,
if nt then i'll settle fr Psychology Studies or Digital Media Design (Animation)

went to th hospital just nw
dad seemed okay,
& his headaches seem to be occuring less
so, great improvement i must say

relatives invited me fr a birthday bbq fr my cousin on Saturday
shld i go?
hmmm..
what about my mum then?
aiyohhh

can't wait to play GH:World Tour with my cousin tmr!
then can talk crap & all with him
hahahh!
Note to self: Take lots of pictures! :D

i dunno why but i feel sleepy all th time!
& despite sleeping fr 10/11 hrs ?!
& i'll even fall asleep every once in a while :S
maybe it's th nice cool whether we're having now
but th cool, night winds are pretty annoying!
ahh!

headswewill,tailswe'lltryagain

2009-01-14T23:40:00.003+08:00

Chapter #006: Weighing Th Options

can't believe i slept fr 11 hrs!
it's been way too long since i've slept that long

my dad seems to be very healthy today;
though he still has his on/off headaches -
quite normal as there's still blood dispersed in his head,
hang in there!
he wanted to go home again today
"doc, can i go home today? i'll come back tmr :D"
hahah, nonsense lah he

watched an awesome episode of How I Met Your Mother on Husain's iPod touch
despite th nonsense & Barney's schemes to get lucky with women,
it really has some awesome advice.
like this once when Ted wanted to break-up with his gf a day before she was leaving fr Germany,
Marshal said:
"If you knew that you were gonna lose your leg tmr,
wld you sit down all day & cry about it?
or wld you run, jump & do awesome air kicks while you still can?"

am kinda having a dilemma to where i wanna go :S
here's my current selection:
1st - CJC (Arts)
2nd - MJC (Sci)
3rd - TPJC (Sci)
4th - SRJC (Sci)
5th - JJC (Sci)
6th - PJC (Sci)
7th - TP / Dip in Leisure & Resort Management
8th - SP / Dip in Tourism & Resort Management
9th - TP / Dip in Hospitality & Resort Mangement
10th - NYP / Dip in Digital Media Design (Animation)
11th - NP / Dip in Tourism & Resort Management
12th - NYP / Dip in Hospitality & Resort Management
i'm even considering Millenia Institute (MI) as one of my options..
hmmm..
better give this a good thinking

rendezvouswhilstasleep

Quote Of Th Day:
Dad, to my cousin Akil: (on th topic of his head)
" What if i run & my head falls off?"

Conversation Of Th Day:
Dad: So, how long will i be here? 1 Day? 2?
Doc: 2 months

2009-01-12T22:35:00.003+08:00

Chapter #005: As Th Breeze Dances To Th Silhouette Of Th Full Moon

'O' Level results are out! ! !
aiyoohhh..
didn't do as well as i thought i would
but hey,
i sure did better than what i gt in my dream!
:O

here's th lowdown:
Subject / Grade
ENGLISH LANG. / B4 (like what?!)
COMB. HUMANITIES / B3 (despite slping in class! :P)
PURE GEOG. / A2
MATHEMATICS / A1 (despite slping in class yet again)
ADD. MATHEMATICS / A2 (despite slping in class & nvr passing before)
PHYSICS / B3 (despite slping & getting a constant C6)
CHEM / B3 (yea you've guessed it, despite slping in class)
MALAY / B3

so that means..
L1R5 - 15 (13 aft minus bonus, 11 if wanna go CJC)
L1B4 - 12

gahhh! english just fcked my results up!
grrrr!

my options?
so far..
1) CJC (Science; see whether can appeal)
2) CJC (Arts)
3) TPJC (Sci)
4) TPJC (Arts)
5) JJC (Sci)
6) JJC (Arts)
7) PJC (Sci)
8) PJC (Arts)
9) SJC (Sci)
10) IJC (Sci)
11) YJC (Sci)
12)
uhhh.. are th options above even possible?
:S

can't believe tht i nw hve to turn to th west and north JCs
guess i gotta savour my long sleeps & afternoon naps while i hve em

anyway,
gdluck fr sch admissions everyone!

you'vemanagedtoturnmyworld360

2009-01-10T23:37:00.003+08:00

Chapter #004: Goodbye, Halcyon Days

can't stand it,
things are moving way too fast.
& i think i'm already reaching my limit.

pls sis,
can you just stop meddling in my life
& want me to be like you - to follow your footsteps.
pls,
i don't wanna be like you.
just..
manage your own life pls?!

ughh i feel a fever coming up..
#$%!&

my dad's recovering quite well by th way
already started joking & up to his nonsense.. ,
just dnt try to run away again pls?

Quote Of Th Day:
Dad: nurse, can you let me go home today?
i'll come back tmr

inthmidstofdarkness,myspiritcallsfryou

2009-01-10T13:44:00.000+08:00

Chapter #003: Stockpile

can't believe my dad pulled out all of the wires -.-
what are the nurses/doctors doing?

everyone around me's getting sick.

mum's beginning to feel the strain of taking care of my dad,

lil sis has the chicken pox & a high fever,

elder sis has a reaction to stress,

as fr me?

so far nothing's happened to me..

but it may be awhile before the sickness kicks in,

ahhh!

hopefully nt! =/

i've realized tht it gets really stressful at th hospital.

you'll see patients coming in & out of th op theatre,

people mourning over th death of their loved ones,

even worse,

they play sentimental instrumental tunes over their P.A in th morning -.-!,

like Celine Dion's "My Heart Will Go On"

& th song frm Th Phantom Of Th Opera

stress finally got to me

& i did this in th end:

but then,

i wasnt satisfied with it though,

so, i did another one:

if you look closely,

th teletubbies are on th clouds!

& i drew some mad man with frizzy hair riding on th goat!

& y'knw,

i might consider submitting this fr th competition!

went to cousin's this afternoon after friday prayers.

played a lil guitar hero

& facebook's Guess Th Sketch.

followed my relatives fetch my aunty,

after which we went to eat at BK.

& nw?

i'm at th hospital again!

& seating at th chairs are numbing to th butt!

hahah!

ohh well,

&asistumbleduponthosemmrs,

2009-01-09T06:24:00.000+08:00

Chapter #002b: Hospital Break

everyone thought things would be better that my dad's now conscious and recovering,

but it doesn't seem so.

don't take me wrong here,

it's not that i'm not relieved to hear that my dad's awake now,

just that now,

he's finding ways to break out of the hospital.

take it like Prison Break except -

it's not prison, but a general hospital

& it's not Michael Scofield, but my dad

& there's no prison guards, only nurses & doctors & whoever else works in the hospital

he's pulled out the wires 4 times today already

& the number's increasing;

he does so until his shirt's filled with blood & whatever not.

how does he do it with his hands tied up?

he'll:

- rub his wrist againts the bed posts to remove the wires

- use his shoulder to remove his oxygen mask

- pull out the wires like how those escape artists escape frm handcuffs

& this list goes on as he find ways to get out of this joint.

pretty witty for smeone recovering frm 2 ops, huh?

sooner or later they should install CCTV cams exclusively in his room,

& install grills at his window,

& maybe infra-red lasers?

oh well,

as long as he's up, laughing, joking around and back to his usual antics,

i'm really relieved now..

just as long as he tries to stop breaking out of the hospital!

mydaddreamtthathewastheINCREDIBLEHULK

2009-01-08T18:24:00.000+08:00

Chapter #002a: Fall Into My Pandemonium

my dad's condition have been improving so far -

finally woke up from his deep slumber as a result of the machine

although he still has a fever now.

the doctors & nurses mentioned that his current status is stable

but only time will reveal of his condition;

hope he'll be blessed with a speedy recovery.

somehow, it doesn't make a difference if i were to be at home or at the hospital,

cause either way i'll be surrounded by sick people -,- :

my lil sis caught my chicken pox,

while my elder sis developed a strange reaction to stress..

oh well..

fcking scared of the results that wil be out on the 12th!

will i pass with flying colours? or will i not?

will i get into the JC of choice? or will i not?

will i ..?

all sorts of questions are buzzing in my head!

ineedtogetoutofthispandemonium!

2009-01-06T23:33:00.001+08:00

Chapter #001: The Fighter; The One Who'll Beat All Odds - My Dad

Save You - Simple Plan

Take a breath

I pull myself together

Just another step until I reach the door

You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you

I wish that I could tell you something

To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you

& there're so many things that I want you to know

I won't give up till it's over

If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice

Its drowning in a whisper

You're just skin and bones

There's nothing left to take

& no matter what I do I can't make you feel better

If only I could find the answer

To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you

& there're so many things that I want you to know

I wont give up till it's over

If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down

I'll pick you up off the ground

If you lose faith in you

I'll give you strength to pull through

Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall

You know,

I'll be there for you

If only I could find the answer

To take it all away

Sometimes i wish i could save you

& there're so many things that I want you to know

I wont give up till it's over

If it takes you forever I want you to know

I wish I could save you

I want you to know

I wish I could save you

It's been 3 days since that traumatic event

& ever since then, it's been constantly replaying like a broken tape recorder;

etched in the very depths of my mind

to sum it up, this was what took place:

me & my family had just reached home frm my uncle's.

as i was having a late dinner,

my dad came storming into the living room.

all that he said was, "my head! my head!" & "it feels like my heads is being cracked open!"

what was i to do?

i was rendered speechless and i was in a complete state of shock...

how was one to react if you were told by someone that he is dying?

....

turns out that a vessel has ruptured and has caused blood to be dispersed throughout his head.

he went for an operation on the 5th;

the vessel was clipped to prevent further dissipation of blood to the brain area.

i only managed to see him at about 2000 hrs that night.

never have i seen him so weak and vulnerable before.

knowing the fighther that he is,

i could only imagine how much pain he is experiencing such that he has been rendered so by it.

but the pain one sees is not as excruciating as how one feels.

i couldn't possibly show him what i was really feeling.

not a single tear shall be shed from my eyes in his presence.

i shan't be his kyptonite.

i had to be his source of strength.

since then,

every second seems so much like forever.

imagine how long a day would feel like.

me and my mum haven't had proper sleep since then,

considering we would wake up every few hours or so.

things seemed to be getting better,

that was until...

0000 hrs on the 6th,

my mum was told that they suspected something wasn't right

despite the operation being a success.

you could literaly see from my mum's eyes that at that very moment,

her world just came crashing down on her.

if only i could tell what she was thinking there and then.

my dad went for a radiology scan on the 6th at about 1200hrs,

his face now even more swollen than before the scan.

turns out that they had to perform a second operation:

they've discovered a second bulge near the first,

and it was showing signs of rapturing.

the only option?

operation.

the risk?

even higher this time.

...

he has been scheduled for surgery at 0600hrs on the 7th.

let's just hope that God will see thru his surgery

& bring him back safely to us.

you could tell that behind the facade of smiles and laughter of my mum

lies a torn up & dead worried person,

holding onto every bit of hope and faith left in her to stay strong.

I gotta be strong,

for the sake of my mum, my dad, and my family.

it's tough,

but i gotta be.

Dear God,

Please Help See My Dad Through His Surgery

& That You'll Bring Him Back Safely To His Loved Ones.

Amin.

I Love You, Papa.

Always Have, & Always Will.

Stay Strong.

Fight On.