Chapter #001: The Fighter; The One Who'll Beat All Odds - My Dad
Save You - Simple Plan
Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step until I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away
Sometimes I wish I could save you
& there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
When I hear your voice
Its drowning in a whisper
You're just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
& no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand
Sometimes I wish I could save you
& there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
You know,
I'll be there for you
If only I could find the answer
To take it all away
Sometimes i wish i could save you
& there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
I wish I could save you
I want you to know
I wish I could save you
It's been 3 days since that traumatic event
& ever since then, it's been constantly replaying like a broken tape recorder;
etched in the very depths of my mind
to sum it up, this was what took place:
me & my family had just reached home frm my uncle's.
as i was having a late dinner,
my dad came storming into the living room.
all that he said was, "my head! my head!" & "it feels like my heads is being cracked open!"
what was i to do?
i was rendered speechless and i was in a complete state of shock...
how was one to react if you were told by someone that he is dying?
....
turns out that a vessel has ruptured and has caused blood to be dispersed throughout his head.
he went for an operation on the 5th;
the vessel was clipped to prevent further dissipation of blood to the brain area.
i only managed to see him at about 2000 hrs that night.
never have i seen him so weak and vulnerable before.
knowing the fighther that he is,
i could only imagine how much pain he is experiencing such that he has been rendered so by it.
but the pain one sees is not as excruciating as how one feels.
i couldn't possibly show him what i was really feeling.
not a single tear shall be shed from my eyes in his presence.
i shan't be his kyptonite.
i had to be his source of strength.
since then,
every second seems so much like forever.
imagine how long a day would feel like.
me and my mum haven't had proper sleep since then,
considering we would wake up every few hours or so.
things seemed to be getting better,
that was until...
0000 hrs on the 6th,
my mum was told that they suspected something wasn't right
despite the operation being a success.
you could literaly see from my mum's eyes that at that very moment,
her world just came crashing down on her.
if only i could tell what she was thinking there and then.
my dad went for a radiology scan on the 6th at about 1200hrs,
his face now even more swollen than before the scan.
turns out that they had to perform a second operation:
they've discovered a second bulge near the first,
and it was showing signs of rapturing.
the only option?
operation.
the risk?
even higher this time.
...
he has been scheduled for surgery at 0600hrs on the 7th.
let's just hope that God will see thru his surgery
& bring him back safely to us.
you could tell that behind the facade of smiles and laughter of my mum
lies a torn up & dead worried person,
holding onto every bit of hope and faith left in her to stay strong.
I gotta be strong,
for the sake of my mum, my dad, and my family.
it's tough,
but i gotta be.
Dear God,
Please Help See My Dad Through His Surgery
& That You'll Bring Him Back Safely To His Loved Ones.
Amin.
I Love You, Papa.
Always Have, & Always Will.
Stay Strong.
Fight On.
Labels: Halcyonic Chronicles
