Chapter #020: Paths Openingi know it's 0742hrs in th morn'
but hey, POSTING'S OUT!
& gt posted to
SRJC (anyone posted here?)
seems pretty decent,
& th uniform seems okay,
might actually look good on me though xD
but might consider appealing into
CJC.
let's see how thing's go.
you can say i'm pretty psych nw tht school's gonna start next week
but then again, today concludes th end of my holidays ):
tht's it, i'm gonna pig out today!
xD
who's with me?!
& to think i'm this hyper after only 4hrs of sleep,
who knew?
walkthisway?
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Chapter #019: Vocal Resonant
Standing on the rooftops, waiting til the bomb drops This is all we got now, screamin til your heart stops Never gonna weaken, watching every sunset Listen to your heart beat, all the life that we've had________________________________________
can't believe those ppl came again
& to think they were highly religious ppl
& they came here, demanding fr what?
a refund?!
& to think they came on gd will to see my dad
ugghh
& yes,
i was so frustrated tht i fell asleep =X
tht totals my sleep fr today to.. 12hrs?
damn, nt a personal best
currently listening to many of th past hits
like
Far Away by
Nickelback&
Six Feet Frm Th Edge by
Creed.
really missed those songs man..
Creed's like MIA right nw
but
Nickelback's new album,
Dark Horseis awesome.
highly recommended! :D
can't wait fr tmr!
it's like 10 1/2 more hrs till results posting!
c'mon! CJ! CJ! CJ! CJ!
*prays hard,
really hard!*
& tmr's probably like th last day of my holiday!
gotta pig out tmr man!
oh darn, there's primary school outing tmr!
& cousin's wedding to prepare summore!
-.-!
*sniff sniff*
i smell food!!
gotta run!
causewithyoui'dwithstandallofhelltoholdyourhand
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Chapter #018: Th Yearn & Burn
Heart quivers whenever you speak;
Evry word spoken never fails to
Replace my sorrow with undying bliss__________________________________
woke up today after having one of th weirdest dreams ever!
& i can't recall a single moment of it!
:S
well,
my blog got a makeover!
thank you!
yes, you know who you are :P
& i gotta admit,
my night was really out of this world :D
savoured it right till th very end!
& it'll be sure to be etched in th very depths of my mind
CAN'T WAIT FR FRIDAY!
posting results man!
0800 hrs!
ahhhhhh!
1st choice pls!
alrighty then,
i wanna go eat ice creammmm
seeya!
anythngfryou,k?
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You Are Sunday
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Like this day of the week, you are ruled by the sun.
More than anything else, you are extremely bold.
You can't help but be a little self-centered and overbearing.
After all, the world does seem to revolve around you at times!
Sunday is the day of rest, and you love to take time to relax.
And for you, nothing is more relaxing than having people wait on you.
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Chapter #017a: Poetically Pathetic
I'm in my head right now,
Locked in deep thoughts
Of you & only you.
Very clueless on what I should say to you right now fr
Evry word I say tends to come out wrong;
You getting hurt as a result.
Oh, should I just shut up & leave?
Unwillingly, if I ever did.
Sorry might not cut it but
Only if it did.
I only wanted to see you happy,
Never hurt &
Even worse by the very words of mine.
Even if it means to abstain from letting my feelings out -
Dormant shall they become -
Yet I would not mind doing so
Only if you'll be happy with where you are right now even if it
Ultimately means I'm no more a piece to your puzzle,
So be it cause I'll do it
Only & always for you.
x lockedindeepthought
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Chapter #017: Th Middle
ughhh
really sucks being th middle child,
where you're neither too young or too old
to do this & tht.
"Haizer, do this.." & "Haizer, do tht.."
whenever anyone needs smeone to blow their top at,
guess who becomes th victim.
right, me.
ughh
frustrated;drivencrazy;victimized
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Chapter #016: Knuckle Debate
Ughh!
i've
fcking had it with you
fcking age doesnt cme with
fcking respect,
mind you.
pms?
pls, i just
fcking woke up
fcking dn't blast at me;
you
fcking blow your top off when i do tht to you right?
so
fcking dnt.
logic?
nahh, i don't think you have one.
next time,
try talking with more sense pls?
& if you dn't like th way i do things,
fcking do you yourself,
aite?
:D
sry.
pardon my language pls,
it's just nt my
fcking day today.
thnks.
& i was right,
my halcyon days are probably long gone
earnmyfckingrespect1st,dammit
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Chapter #015: Who Spun Th Wheel Of Misfortune?it's been 3 weeks nw
& it seems like alot has happened,
& i do mean ALOT
Week 1:
reference frm my past few posts,
dad had to undergo 2 ops within 2 days
due to a ruptured vessel.
Week 2:
reference frm my one of my previous post,
paternal grandmum had to undergo surgery
due to a hip fracture (?)
but should be discharged today.
Week 3:
today,
at 0619 hrs,
mum received a call frm my uncle
saying tht my aunt's house caught fire
& they were rushed to NUH (?)
but got news tht they were okay.
& well yesterday,
God forbid, but i guess i lost smeone important to me
sigh, really really blew it
well, since i gt up early today
i didnt bother going back to sleep,
though i kinda did fr about a few minutes?
& i dreamt tht i was alrdy all ready to go fr my bball session,
bt well,
i woke up, in my bad, & all groggy
quite on-form fr today's session
but yet again, gt quite a number of injuries
well, nth new fr me
List Of Injuries:
x ball landed right
SMACK onto my face
x thumb gt fcked up,
againx blisters
x leg cramps (well, didnt stretch so was kinda askin fr it :S)
evryeventhasareasonbehindit
Quote Of Th Day:
Sme NS dude we played with [referring to me]:
"hey rebound king!"
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Chapter #014: 1930's
took me about an hr to draw this!
freaking hard, i swear
even left out the feet
aahh! :S
& what, after weeks nt holding a pencil?
awesommee!
watched
Supernatural (S04E05) entitled "
Monster Movie"
& it made me so interested in all th 1930's horror movie!
so yea,
ended up drawing th werewolf above!
today was so-so actually
met up with Danial & Matin fr friday prayers
after which, we went to eat at New Hawa
& i heard tht Mr Lim **** ****
gt fired cause he gt caught watching porn on his laptop
in th freaking staff rm!
whether tht's true or nt,
tht has yet to be cnfirmed,
bt trust me, Mr Lim is kinda - errr - well, y'knw :S
*sends chills down spine*
ohh well,
wanna go watch Smallville nw!
& oohhh!
basketball tmr! so pumped up nw! :D
gimmeapencil&ishallpresentyouwithapotrait
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Side Chapter #002: On Th Big Screenread tht there are awesome movies which
are gonna be released this year!
this calls fr a MOVIE MARATHON!
My Bloody Valentine 3D
starring Jensen Ackles (played Dean Winchester in Supernatural)
Street Fighter: Legend Of Chun-Li
ooooboy! Kristin Kreuk! *drools*
& this will be Taboo's 1st on-screen roll!
i bet you'll knw what he's playing
*hint: character with long hair & who's name starts with a 'V'
Fast & Furious (4)
Paul Walker, who plays Brian O' Conner, is back!
Wonder what awesome cars will be displayed here
Dragonball Evolution
hmmm.. a white guy playing a Japanese anime character?
not to fancy bout th idea,
but let's see wht it has in store
cause th trailer's quite awesome!
X-men Origins: Wolverine
fr all x-men fans, Gambit will be featured in this movie!
& this will be Will.i.am's 1st on-screen role!
looks like another B.E.P member acting on th silverscreen
Transformers 2: Revenge Of Th Fallen
can't wait fr this one!
hope this one has more graphics, cool automobiles & more Megan Fox!
=X!
there's a whole lot more to be shown this year, like:
Final Destination: Death Trip 3D,
Dance Flick,
New Moon (?),
2012,and th list goes on!
you thought i was gonna feature em' all did you?
SIAO! =P
oh well,
TV time!
i'mntinsane,i'mntinsane!
Chapter #013: We Have A Fever, You&IAlmost Easy
Avenged SevenfoldI feel insane
Every single time I'm asked to compromise
'Cause I'm afraid & stuck in my ways
& that's the way it stays
So how long did I expect love to outweigh ignorance?
By that look on your face I may have forced the scale to tip
I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not... (not insane)
(Mother)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again it's almost easy
Shame pulses through my heart from the things I've done to you
It's hard to face but the fact remains that this is nothing new
I left you bound and tied with suicidal memories
Selfish beneath the skin but deep inside I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not...(not insane)
(Mother)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again it's almost easy
(You'll learn your lesson)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(But first you fall)
Come back again it's almost easy
Now that I've lost you it kills me to say
(Hurts to say)
I've tried to hold on as you've slowly slipped away
I'm losing the fight, I've treated you so wrong now let me make it right
(Make it alright)
I'm not insane, I'm not insane
(Ha ha ha ha ha)
I'm not insane, I'm not... Not insane
(Mother)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again it's almost easy
(You'll learn your lesson)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(But still you fall)
Come back again it's almost easygot th song playing over & over again in my head;
freaking hooked to th song!
"i'm nt insane, i'm nt insaneeeee!..
Come back to me, it's almost e-zay!"
you see?
it's 2339 hrs nw & my eyes are
WIDE open!
gotta stay up to watch American Idol at 0030 hrs & Heroes at 0230 hrs
can't wait!
note to self: dn't frgt to give dad medicine @ 0100hrstoday was kinda okay actually, cld've been better though.
watched 3 episodes of Supernatural (S04) in th afternoon,
awesome stuff man, aweeeesome!
then went to th hospital to visit my grandmum;
will probably be discharged this Saturday if things go well
speaking of Saturday,
i wanna go play bball in th morning!
smebody host please!
& i've been wanting to wake up evry morn' to jog,
but, well, knwing me -
Reenactment:
*alarm rings*
Me: *offs th phone alarm & tosses it under my pillow*
Me: *snoreeeeeeee* =Xughhh,
i feel a fever coming up,
blearghhhh
i'mntinsane,i'mntinsane!
Quote Of Th Day:
Dad [when he found out i posted his pics on it]:
Huh?! What block (referring to blog)? Goblok? (stupid in Indon)
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Side Chapter #001: Smallville
season 8 of
Smallville is awesome!
this season nw casts Justin Hartley, who plays Oliver Queen / Green Arrow
as a regular
& has added new faces to th cast: Cassidy Freeman & Sam Witwer.
also,
this season features more DC Comics characters like
Plastique, Maxima & members of Th Legion & probably more to cme
th season will probably focus on hw
th Lois&Clark pair came about
& th formation of th JL perhaps?
pretty awesome stuff i must say!
& &!
they hve pretty awesome actresses cast in
Smallville,
like
Kristin Kreuk &
Erica Durance,
&
Allison Mack's not to bad too!
*drools* =X
right nw they're at episode 11, "
Legion"
& episode 12, "
Bulletproof" will be out smetime
today or tmr!
can't wait!
:D
iwannahvesuperpowers&aredcapetoo!
bti'llsparethneedtowearredundies,thnkyouverymuch :D
Chapter #012: Frustratedly Tiredi'm damn frustrated nw cause i can't get
sme sleep despite being so freaking tired!
ughh!
it's been like this fr days nw
it's like, i'm being drained off my energy
& i can go yawning th entire day
yet, i can't sleep!
WHY!
whycan'tifreakingnaplikeialwaysdo?!
dad just gt discharged today btw
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Chapter #011: Th Outram Park Miracle"most probably you'll be able to go home by tmr"
when th doc mentioned tht to my dad,
you cld literally see his face lit up
& he went "naneenaneepoopoo!" at all th nurses of Ward 52b!
bt well,
he will hve to go fr a brain scan 1st tmr
& see whether he still has his "after 1900hrs" fever
ever wondered what th surgery did to him?
well folks, th wait is over!
*drum roll!*
hahhaha!
nah kidding!
kkay, th real thing
note: if you hve poor gag reflexes, pls skip th nxt few pics
*not stitches, bt staples
yea ouch! i knw! :S
closer view
my mum calls this th "stress mark"
cause she believes he's like this due to overexertion
you workaholic dad!
but well,
it looks like he's suntanning at th beach in this picture
& to think he went through 2 ops within 2 days
OUCH! if you ask me
even th docs say it was a miracle fr him to be up & running this early,
whilst others were wheelchairbound after such surgery,
or worse, *gulp*, dn't make it at all
if you were to ask me,
this is trully a miracle
& i'd like to thnk all who have prayed fr my dad
& i'll be thnkful to you all frm this day on
:)
&dearGod,thnksfrseeingmydadthruhismomentofnd
Conversation Of Th Day:
Patient: Is he (me) th eldest?
Dad: Nah, he isn't. He is, what you say, th hotdog between 2 buns
Patient / Me / Mum: Hahahha!
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Chapter #009: Falling StarYesterday:Went to th hospital again;
it's kinda like my daily routine if you ask me.
pretty much all my paternal relatives are there
cause my grandma had to go fr an operation too.
but it got quite 'out-of-th-ordinary' smewhere in th evening;
i'd rather not say why. *chills sent down my spine!*
anyway,
tht NYP nursing student on came at night when i was going home!
WHY!
Warning:
Slight Horror Content Regarding SGH1.this was back when my dad was in th ICU.
according to him,
it was th 'dirtiest' amongst th 3 rooms he has been in.
there was an occurence where he said tht
there was a red wall in front of him
& he also felt tht he was beside a tree
despite being on th
2nd floor & in an
enclosed area
2.th current room he's been warded in.
he once mentioned there were little kids running around
at 3am & he even asked th nurses whether it was a nursery.
there's a few more but i'd rather not mention bout it,
dn't ask me why
itdoesn'ttakeascientisttoknwthtimissedyouso
Conversation Of Th Day:
Dad: Is it tht nurse? *points to some old lady*
Me: No! Tht one! *points to th NYP nursing student*
Dad: You uh, so cheeky! Later i'll ask her name fr you
Me: *stuck between 'What?!' & 'Oooboy! :D'*
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Chapter #008: Calamity Callingfinally,
dad's been transferred into th least critical room
in th neuroscience ward!
& th doctor expected him to be in th ICU fr 2 wks;
2 steps down with less than a week!
bt then,
heard tht my grandma (paternal) had a fall today :S
sigh,
frm one misfortune to another..
hopefully another misfortune won't follow suite :S
oh, dear God..
i dunno why but i didn't feel right when i woke up,
& it's been bugging me th whole day
ugghh!
areaccidentsthinthingnw?
Conversation Of Th Day:
Dad: You're th best son i've ever had!
Me: But i'm your only son
Dad: Tht's why you're th best!
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Chapter #007: Sealed Fatefinally submitted my option form.
it's been bugging me fr days nw!
phew!
CJC, hopefully!
ohh well,
if nt then i'll settle fr Psychology Studies or Digital Media Design (Animation)
went to th hospital just nw
dad seemed okay,
& his headaches seem to be occuring less
so, great improvement i must say
relatives invited me fr a birthday bbq fr my cousin on Saturday
shld i go?
hmmm..
what about my mum then?
aiyohhh
can't wait to play GH:World Tour with my cousin tmr!
then can talk crap & all with him
hahahh!
Note to self: Take lots of pictures! :D
i dunno why but i feel sleepy all th time!
& despite sleeping fr 10/11 hrs ?!
& i'll even fall asleep every once in a while :S
maybe it's th nice cool whether we're having now
but th cool, night winds are pretty annoying!
ahh!
headswewill,tailswe'lltryagain
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Chapter #006: Weighing Th Optionscan't believe i slept fr 11 hrs!
it's been way too long since i've slept that long
my dad seems to be very healthy today;
though he still has his on/off headaches -
quite normal as there's still blood dispersed in his head,
hang in there!
he wanted to go home again today
"doc, can i go home today? i'll come back tmr :D"
hahah, nonsense lah he
watched an awesome episode of
How I Met Your Mother on Husain's iPod touch
despite th nonsense & Barney's schemes to get lucky with women,
it really has some awesome advice.
like this once when Ted wanted to break-up with his gf a day before she was leaving fr Germany,
Marshal said:
"If you knew that you were gonna lose your leg tmr,
wld you sit down all day & cry about it?
or wld you run, jump & do awesome air kicks while you still can?"
am kinda having a dilemma to where i wanna go :S
here's my current selection:
1st - CJC (Arts)
2nd - MJC (Sci)
3rd - TPJC (Sci)
4th - SRJC (Sci)
5th - JJC (Sci)
6th - PJC (Sci)
7th - TP / Dip in Leisure & Resort Management
8th - SP / Dip in Tourism & Resort Management
9th - TP / Dip in Hospitality & Resort Mangement
10th - NYP / Dip in Digital Media Design (Animation)
11th - NP / Dip in Tourism & Resort Management
12th - NYP / Dip in Hospitality & Resort Management
i'm even considering Millenia Institute (MI) as one of my options..
hmmm..
better give this a good thinking
rendezvouswhilstasleep
Quote Of Th Day:
Dad, to my cousin Akil: (on th topic of his head)
" What if i run & my head falls off?"
Conversation Of Th Day:
Dad: So, how long will i be here? 1 Day? 2?
Doc: 2 months
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Chapter #005: As Th Breeze Dances To Th Silhouette Of Th Full Moon'O' Level results are out! ! !
aiyoohhh..
didn't do as well as i thought i would
but hey,
i sure did better than what i gt in my dream!
:O
here's th lowdown:
Subject /
GradeENGLISH LANG. / B4 (like what?!)
COMB. HUMANITIES / B3 (despite slping in class! :P)
PURE GEOG. / A2
MATHEMATICS / A1 (despite slping in class yet again)
ADD. MATHEMATICS / A2 (despite slping in class & nvr passing before)
PHYSICS / B3 (despite slping & getting a constant C6)
CHEM / B3 (yea you've guessed it, despite slping in class)
MALAY / B3
so that means..
L1R5 - 15 (13 aft minus bonus, 11 if wanna go CJC)
L1B4 - 12
gahhh! english just fcked my results up!
grrrr!
my options?
so far..
1) CJC (Science; see whether can appeal)
2) CJC (Arts)
3) TPJC (Sci)
4) TPJC (Arts)
5) JJC (Sci)
6) JJC (Arts)
7) PJC (Sci)
8) PJC (Arts)
9) SJC (Sci)
10) IJC (Sci)
11) YJC (Sci)
12)
uhhh.. are th options above even possible?
:S
can't believe tht i nw hve to turn to th west and north JCs
guess i gotta savour my long sleeps & afternoon naps while i hve em
anyway,
gdluck fr sch admissions everyone!
you'vemanagedtoturnmyworld360
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Chapter #004: Goodbye, Halcyon Dayscan't stand it,
things are moving way too fast.
& i think i'm already reaching my limit.
pls sis,
can you just stop meddling in my life
& want me to be like you - to follow your footsteps.
pls,
i don't wanna be like you.
just..
manage your own life pls?!
ughh i feel a fever coming up..
#$%!&
my dad's recovering quite well by th way
already started joking & up to his nonsense.. ,
just dnt try to run away again pls?
Quote Of Th Day:
Dad: nurse, can you let me go home today?
i'll come back tmr
inthmidstofdarkness,myspiritcallsfryou
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Chapter #003: Stockpile
can't believe my dad pulled out all of the wires -.-
what are the nurses/doctors doing?
everyone around me's getting sick.
mum's beginning to feel the strain of taking care of my dad,
lil sis has the chicken pox & a high fever,
elder sis has a reaction to stress,
as fr me?
so far nothing's happened to me..
but it may be awhile before the sickness kicks in,
ahhh!
hopefully nt! =/
i've realized tht it gets really stressful at th hospital.
you'll see patients coming in & out of th op theatre,
people mourning over th death of their loved ones,
even worse,
they play sentimental instrumental tunes over their P.A in th morning -.-!,
like Celine Dion's "My Heart Will Go On"
& th song frm Th Phantom Of Th Opera
stress finally got to me
& i did this in th end:
but then,
i wasnt satisfied with it though,
so, i did another one:
if you look closely,
th teletubbies are on th clouds!
& i drew some mad man with frizzy hair riding on th goat!
& y'knw,
i might consider submitting this fr th competition!
XP
went to cousin's this afternoon after friday prayers.
played a lil guitar hero
& facebook's Guess Th Sketch.
followed my relatives fetch my aunty,
after which we went to eat at BK.
& nw?
i'm at th hospital again!
& seating at th chairs are numbing to th butt!
hahah!
ohh well,
&asistumbleduponthosemmrs,
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Chapter #002b: Hospital Break
everyone thought things would be better that my dad's now conscious and recovering,
but it doesn't seem so.
don't take me wrong here,
it's not that i'm not relieved to hear that my dad's awake now,
just that now,
he's finding ways to break out of the hospital.
take it like Prison Break except -
it's not prison, but a general hospital
& it's not Michael Scofield, but my dad
& there's no prison guards, only nurses & doctors & whoever else works in the hospital
he's pulled out the wires 4 times today already
& the number's increasing;
he does so until his shirt's filled with blood & whatever not.
how does he do it with his hands tied up?
he'll:
- rub his wrist againts the bed posts to remove the wires
- use his shoulder to remove his oxygen mask
- pull out the wires like how those escape artists escape frm handcuffs
& this list goes on as he find ways to get out of this joint.
pretty witty for smeone recovering frm 2 ops, huh?
sooner or later they should install CCTV cams exclusively in his room,
& install grills at his window,
& maybe infra-red lasers?
XD
oh well,
as long as he's up, laughing, joking around and back to his usual antics,
i'm really relieved now..
just as long as he tries to stop breaking out of the hospital!
mydaddreamtthathewastheINCREDIBLEHULK
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Chapter #002a: Fall Into My Pandemonium
my dad's condition have been improving so far -
finally woke up from his deep slumber as a result of the machine
although he still has a fever now.
the doctors & nurses mentioned that his current status is stable
but only time will reveal of his condition;
hope he'll be blessed with a speedy recovery.
somehow, it doesn't make a difference if i were to be at home or at the hospital,
cause either way i'll be surrounded by sick people -,- :
my lil sis caught my chicken pox,
while my elder sis developed a strange reaction to stress..
oh well..
fcking scared of the results that wil be out on the 12th!
will i pass with flying colours? or will i not?
will i get into the JC of choice? or will i not?
will i ..?
all sorts of questions are buzzing in my head!
ineedtogetoutofthispandemonium!
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Chapter #001: The Fighter; The One Who'll Beat All Odds - My Dad
Save You - Simple Plan
Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step until I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away
Sometimes I wish I could save you
& there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
When I hear your voice
Its drowning in a whisper
You're just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
& no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand
Sometimes I wish I could save you
& there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
You know,
I'll be there for you
If only I could find the answer
To take it all away
Sometimes i wish i could save you
& there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
I wish I could save you
I want you to know
I wish I could save you
It's been 3 days since that traumatic event
& ever since then, it's been constantly replaying like a broken tape recorder;
etched in the very depths of my mind
to sum it up, this was what took place:
me & my family had just reached home frm my uncle's.
as i was having a late dinner,
my dad came storming into the living room.
all that he said was, "my head! my head!" & "it feels like my heads is being cracked open!"
what was i to do?
i was rendered speechless and i was in a complete state of shock...
how was one to react if you were told by someone that he is dying?
....
turns out that a vessel has ruptured and has caused blood to be dispersed throughout his head.
he went for an operation on the 5th;
the vessel was clipped to prevent further dissipation of blood to the brain area.
i only managed to see him at about 2000 hrs that night.
never have i seen him so weak and vulnerable before.
knowing the fighther that he is,
i could only imagine how much pain he is experiencing such that he has been rendered so by it.
but the pain one sees is not as excruciating as how one feels.
i couldn't possibly show him what i was really feeling.
not a single tear shall be shed from my eyes in his presence.
i shan't be his kyptonite.
i had to be his source of strength.
since then,
every second seems so much like forever.
imagine how long a day would feel like.
me and my mum haven't had proper sleep since then,
considering we would wake up every few hours or so.
things seemed to be getting better,
that was until...
0000 hrs on the 6th,
my mum was told that they suspected something wasn't right
despite the operation being a success.
you could literaly see from my mum's eyes that at that very moment,
her world just came crashing down on her.
if only i could tell what she was thinking there and then.
my dad went for a radiology scan on the 6th at about 1200hrs,
his face now even more swollen than before the scan.
turns out that they had to perform a second operation:
they've discovered a second bulge near the first,
and it was showing signs of rapturing.
the only option?
operation.
the risk?
even higher this time.
...
he has been scheduled for surgery at 0600hrs on the 7th.
let's just hope that God will see thru his surgery
& bring him back safely to us.
you could tell that behind the facade of smiles and laughter of my mum
lies a torn up & dead worried person,
holding onto every bit of hope and faith left in her to stay strong.
I gotta be strong,
for the sake of my mum, my dad, and my family.
it's tough,
but i gotta be.
Dear God,
Please Help See My Dad Through His Surgery
& That You'll Bring Him Back Safely To His Loved Ones.
Amin.
I Love You, Papa.
Always Have, & Always Will.
Stay Strong.
Fight On.
Labels: Halcyonic Chronicles
